Tumbling in the waves

September 15, 2014

I’ve been meaning to do a bit of an update on this blog for a while, but every time I go to write one, I’ve felt like a bit of a fraud putting up beautiful photos of things I’ve been doing, and talking about how great everything is all the time, when recently, if I’m being honest, I’ve felt pretty out of sorts. I don’t like to bring things down, and I have been doing a lot of fun stuff the past few months, but it’s also been mixed with quite a bit of emotions and uncertainty. It’s hard with social media, because connections are always surface level, and Facebook isn’t a space I feel comfortable sharing really personal things, or the downside of things. And I know I’m not unique in feeling that way. It’s very true for many people, and a lot of times we are left comparing our “every day” lives to the best of everyone else’s. I’m not advocating people start sharing woes in a public space, but I think sometimes it’s comforting to know that everyone has shit going on, and it’s not all awesome all the time.

I was talking with my best friend this morning, and “the grass is always greener” analogy came up. I’ve always been someone who struggles with this, but it’s also so true. And I feel like I’ve been on both sides of the pasture and I know how deceiving that damn green grass can be. And even somewhat knowing doesn’t make it any easier, or make things more clear.

Life just has a way of knocking you down sometimes and leaving you with a feeling of uncertainty. I know how fortunate I am in life, and the opportunities that I’ve been given. Sometimes I just wish I had a chart to navigate through these difficult times. And for the most part, I think that’s where my best friends always seem to step in. But it’s difficult when you’re so far away.

So today, I’m focusing on keeping things in perspective. Being thankful for this time I have right now, in all it’s uncertainty. It’s not the first time I’ve felt this way, and I’m sure it won’t be the last. It’s one of those down times that help make the up times so much more awesome.

I’ll try and make my next post a bit more upbeat. And apologies if I brought you down today. This has always been a space for me to speak what’s on my mind, and be honest about all things.

These images are from a VERY awesome weekend we had away. Camping on the beach and swimming in the ocean just a little ways south of where we live. I thought they might help brighten the tone.